stress

it's not something that i am happy about but it seems at times to be unavoidable...i have stress...99% of my stress is self imposed and about school...am i doing enough to be getting the grades that i want to get...am i learning everything that i should be learning...am i _ever_ going to get better at general chemistry...but the strange thing about stress is that i really truly notice how bad it had been when i have a day (or a few) where i don't feel any...

i am happy to say that yesterday was one of those days...it just happened to be near 85 degrees and sunny...just an amazing day...

my class on thursdays is a 5 hour chem lab...and i was there almost the whole time yesterday but never once in a bad mood...part of that had to do with the fact that my grade on my lab #2 report, quiz, post lab and pre-lab for lab #3 were returned and i did so much better on these...guess it is tough to know what the first lab is like...and how it is going to be graded...we then did acid base titration...lots of fun...but a bit tedious...i enjoyed the lab though and am getting to know my bench mates a bit too...nice girls

after lab i went over to the gym to get a pool workout in...and had to walk by a rather offensive and graphic anti-abortion exhibit...i really don't like when people use religion as an excuse not to think...i could go on and on...but i won't...the only good thing about walking by that was i got to see cindy!...yeah...haven't seen her in a long time...and she told me about her 48 minute marathon PR...yes ladies and gents....a 48 minute pr....NICE WORK!...that is so awesome...and even better was how excited she is about it....yeah for personal achievement...and for setting new goals...rock on cindy...

had a great swim in the pool...outdoors feels like a resort...and the chlorine doesn't sting my face like at lost creek...did a 2500 on my own with out a workout...just doing this and that...had a pull buoy and a kick board but nothing else...it was very enjoyable

home for a bit...and then to my surprise j came home...and worked from home (mostly on the studio) for the rest of the afternoon! it was like a weekend to have him home...it made me smile that he also got to enjoy some of the beautiful day..

after a trip to the grocery store...i cooked two lasagnas one for us for friday and one for logan...poor guy still in recovery mode from his bike wreck last weekend...food=healing in my book...dropped it over at his house...then back home to cook dinner for us...we grilled out...

PT and then to bed with me...it was so nice not to have the pressure of things due friday...or a test looming...one next friday but i think i can get that one down over the weekend...so hopefully i can try at least for a few days to keep this lack of stress feeling going...it's really nice!